After all the fights and tears, our good times are still much better than our bad. I’m really glad when the fight ends, love’s still there. I know you’re kind, and handsome that all your ex-girlfriends secretly want you back. They’re all prettier than me, that’s why my insecurity level rises up to 80% which lead to the rise of my jealousy level as well. If only i could tell you everything in my heart, i’m pretty sure you’d leave me. I can’t bear losing you, not even have the thoughts of you leaving me on my own. I’m trying really hard to put the past behind me. I know i have to be more patient when facing my problems, especially when it comes to something that’s gonna break my heart. I’m sorry for the time being i can’t accept the humiliation that you did to me, and thatparticular thing but no worries ‘cause i’ve forgiven you for that. And please, don’t you dare to do it again. I never ever wanna lose you. I’ve gotta admit that you’re the best thing that ever happened to me. You make me feel loved, feel everything that i’ve never felt with other guy before. If possible, i want us to be together forever. All the things that we had done together was totally incredible.
I can’t deny that we’ve all changed, myself included, but your change is the saddest one. It’s not your fault because it’s me that’s being too paranoid all this time. I think too much, so pessimist. I get jealous easily, but we both know that, right? We know it very well. I miss the old times so much. I miss the laughters that we used to have every effin’ time, the tears that you can rarely see on my face. But now, everything’s so different. Fake smiles, tears stream down my face almost every single day and i can hardly hear your laughters. All that we’ve gotta do is stand up for our relationship, and fight those obstacles or conjecture or what-so-ever back. That’s why we called it a relationship. You agreed to take the risks, make sure you finish it ‘til the end. Oh wells, what is love then if there are no fights in the relationship? :)
I love you in every single way, sweetheart.
