I love him & he means the world to me. When I thought no one was there for me, when no one was listening, he was always there with open arms & open ears. I kind of started to crush on him since the first time I spoke to him & then got closer to him over the months. He’s been there for me since day one & is there to hold my hand through the bad times in my life. He’s seen me at my worst & still loves me for who I am. I can’t really explain how I know for sure that he really does love me but I just can tell from the way he looks at me & is always serious whenever he tells me how he feels. I’ve made him cry a few times because of my moods & it just shows me how much he loves me. He doesn’t need to be perfect but he’s perfect in my eyes. I don’t need him to look like an Abercrombie model, I just need him to love me for who I am & not judge me for it. He’s an amazing guy & I don’t ever want him to change. I’m glad that I met him because he changed me, he changed my perspective on life, he taught me that when life throws you down you must pick yourself back up & keep on moving forward. I know he’ll be there for me every step of the way. If anything bad ever happens between us, I know we’ll make it through. I love it when he sings to me, I love it when he plays the piano for me, . I love him for who he is & I don’t need anything more because he’s all I’ve ever asked for & even more. I don’t deserve a guy like him but here he is making me laugh, making me smile. I love him more than anything. He gave me hope when I thought my life should end.
I hate that I have to lie to him.
I hate that I have to lie to him whenever there is something wrong with me. I don’t like making him worried about me so I always tell him the same thing every time he asks, “I’m okay.” I don’t want to have to lie to him but it kills me every time I end up hurting him because I’m not feeling okay. I dislike my mood swings but I love him for putting up with me & my bullshit.
